i hate you..

cause i’m not noble enough to let you go cause i love you and now i’m hurting so badly inside.
cause i’m not the one who did wrong and let you hurt me so badly.
cause you never tried to make it up to me
cause you were ready to drop me
cause you made me realize this two years were just lies
cause you could easily call someone else what you used to call me
cause you could do the sweetest thing for someone else and never did for me
cause i don’t know what i did to deserve all this
cause i thought i did enough and nothing came out of it.
cause whenever we quarrel, you asked me to find others but told me u regretted saying it and i stayed, never once left and go through your shit with you but end up you left me for someone else.
cause i’m so affected and you don’t feel a thing when you caused everything.
cause you never did see how beautiful and how far this could bring us.
cause no matter how much i tell you and how much you know that i love you, it doesn’t seem to matter.
cause you never did realized how important you are to me.
cause you never believed in this, us and me.
cause you are who you are.
cause you never felt guilty.
cause i never did knew what she could give you that i couldn’t.
cause you never gave me a chance to fight for you
cause you never gave me a reason to why all this happened
cause the assurance you gave were bullshit
cause you just put me through this huge blow and expects me to just DEAL WITH IT alone
cause you never wanted to make any effort to make this better
cause you took everything for granted
cause you took my heart, trust and loyalty for granted.
cause you had someone to fall on to.
cause you never had faith in me and this relationship
cause of her, you left.
cause you’re incredibly unpredictably heartless.
cause it’s been 2 months & counting & i’m still hurting.
cause i can’t get you out of my mind 24-7
cause i feel like a fool for buying you things when you were overseas and anticipate your reaction when i show it to you cause i just want to see you smile.
cause nothing i do could make you come back
cause i’m too ugly for you
cause maybe i do not have enough money to buy you wonders.
cause everything actually supposed to end on the end of october 2011 but you choose to lie and have the best of both worlds and let it drag on for 1 and a half months.
cause 我无法忘掉你， 无法把自己对你的感情放开。

cause you never did loved me enough to want to keep me.

i hate you… but i love you. so what am i to do?